I am really down this days… couldn’t figure out if it’s because it’s december. A very empty december….
Read through this diary that I kept in secondary 4, it was filled with entires over the one month that I manage to get started and ended on the exact date, surprisingly to find. It amazes me, strongly for the depth of vocabulary I have thrown into writing, and of course the content. Somethings I cannot quite remember, but some I still do, very strongly.
Leaving for Japan in about 3 days time? Having a really hard time pulling things together and getting myself prepared. Besides, this is the first time I am going on an airplane without my family, without my parents. Disregard the Bali trip and that short Malaysia band trip. I’ve been trying to arrange and piecing in together for all my outfit. Not quite done yet but should be soon. Besides, I’ve waited for this about close to 3 years? At the start of sec 3 when I was informed about the opportunity of going to Japan for a freak one month, like totally free of charge and then till very now, at the end of my first year in jc. Ought to be ready but Im not, honestly.
Was in the rain this other day holding super lots of stuff that’s way beyond the capabilities of my 2 hands, trying to flag down a cab with the competition of all the cunning uncle and aunties that doesn’t even have any basic sympathy for me, someone without any umbrella over my head and holding onto a laptop, some 7 super huge big boards and a super heavy roll of plastic wrapper. Okay, they were also snatching for taxi. Anyway, this girl from my school wanted to get a cab too and she came over to me to offer me shelter (instead of trying to snatch the cab). Oh well, thank you kind soul though I didn’t get your name down.
This friend from Japan told me that I am in this like unpopular people list in the school. Ha, heck like I care, but I thing it’s quite an achievement, don’t you think so? It’s an extreme stand that you’ll have to take. Either you make it to the popular one, if not like me the unpopular one, or pathetically remain in between. Of course, there would be people who rather remain in between which I have no comment on cause I believe it’s no fault to be in either one and I takes a whole deal of words to explain which, I am lazy to. So, in short, I’ll just like to say that no one in this word has the ability and power to judge you down, only you do.
Oh back to that Japan friend, we were doing our group work together and we discussed on several topics, as you can see my popularity is one of it. We mentioned some stuff about marriage and it made me started thinking, though I have already formalised what the whole marriage concept is to me some years ago (which I am not going to share just like I did with them cause I got pointed out for some trust issue problem and I do not wish to blow up my supposing absurd marriage concept here so allow me to move on, on what I think would be a nice wedding venue). I was thinking over the past few days that a cliff would be a perfect venue for a wedding. Just like the one in Bali, minus the monkeys running around wildly and freely. It would be really amazing! Can you imagine if a couple are exchanging their vows and half way through, cause of too much shear stress (this is geog, though I am a really lousy geog student) the cliff decides to chip off like mass movement or something? (darn, someone correct me, I need to take the A-levels on this) then the bride and the groom, oh and together with that super unlucky .. um, (who is that guy that you know, stands in the middle and talks like this whole crap of stuff before the bride and the groom is allowed to say like ‘I do’ guy) all fall off together into the deep deep Indian Ocean (eh, i learnt this in geog, and the tour guide said so too)! Oh then now, all the guest would be way to flabbergasted at what they see and shouts ‘Oh no!’, with their mouths like remaining half open in shock but all still stands there and remain to do nothing. And then after like quite some time, someone finally realise that it is way to beyond any hope or any help which they can offer to the poor couple and that way to innocent guy which I do not know the formal name of decides that it is only appropriate to go on and proceeds on to having the refreshments by the side while now fearing of any more of the shear stress thing happening to any other part of the cliff which is a cause of human activities, vibrations and shocks, removal of vegetation and many other things that I have already forgotten from what I’ve learnt in geog. How amazing. And thank you for reading my crap if you actually did. Ha!
I feel better now, after all the endless crapping and emptying of my nonsensical thoughts.
Will move on now, though I don’t really have a choice anyway. Cheers.
Oh I realise that I should learn to make a little more friends. Just a little.
