My mom forbid me from eating noodles, tonight, again for the 2nd time of the week. And guess what? I had noodles! I swear she’s gonna make my domestic helper dump all the instant noodles away some day. I can have it like 7 times a week, really exaggerated huh.

Tell me, what would you suggest to someone who doesn’t take beef, mutton, duck and avoids fishes and pork. There’s practically nothing much left for me to eat! Besides, the only vegetables which I am willing to consume is broccoli, asparagus, long bean, bean sprouts and all the mushroom types. Can’t turn vegetarian either.

Coke for dinner? I wish.

I AM CHANGING MY PHONE, AGAIN AND LIKE FINALLY!

I swear that the Omnia I’m currently holding on is the worst phone anyone can get. It’ll mad darn annoying, no joke.

Now, I have to decide on what phone  I am changing too!

And, Shan is going on court for meditation with this guy that tried to exploit her last year, over a stupid-freaking-small-and-not-visible-to-human-eye YELLOW scratch which he claims that Shan’s RED car has knock on. Retarded right? To the hell with you, cause you are gonna get sued!

Happiness. And, yes I am very evil.

LYL, DADDY WILL GET YOU A CAR IF YOU MAKE IT INTO THE UNIVERSITY. A CAR – SAY GOODBYE TO PUBLIC TRANSPORT, SMELLY SITS AND ANNOYING SLOW BUS RIDES. A CAR, LYL. THERE YOU GO, RUN ALONG. YOU CAN MAKE IT. 10 MORE MONTHS, AND YOU WILL GET A CAR OF YOUR OWN, THAT WILL BRING YOU AROUND WHEREVER YOU WANNA GO. WANT IT? – GO GET IT EH.

LAZY ASS, PRACTICE FOR YOUR TEST TOMORROW. YOU KNOW THAT YOU ARE NOT SLEEPY. YOU KNOW THAT. MORE IMPORTANTLY, YOU KNOW YOU WON’T FAIL THE TEST. IN FACT, YOU MUST PASS IT WELL.

慈母多败儿

The only phrase that I am capable of coming up to describe my thoughts and feelings at the moment…

Integrity.l.

Continuation of my endearing story of this tuition encounter. Here we go.

Last night, I received two miss calls from Anna, and I return her call.

The following will be the content of our conversation (of course, not in exact words – got no super memory here) and as usual my personal comments.

Casual greeting by both as an opening to our, let’s say very exciting conversation. Well, but I guess I am the only excited though.  

Anna: I heard that you want to stop tuition with Lily. Is it okay for you to finish the four lessons first so that she can pay for the agent commission fee?

Me: Okay, based on what I recall, your message to my friend instructed her not to go back to the agent so that you can avoid paying the agent fee, so where did the agent come from now?

Anna: Oh, I’ve consulted my agent and he said that I am not suppose to take up another student until 4 months later (some sort of regulation, as she claims) that’s why I refer you to my friend and I am now trying to earn the agent fee.

Personal comment:

Point #1: Oh my, how should I put this. My dear not too intelligent A student for maths, please put in a little more effort into formulating your lies before calling me… There you are claiming that you have consulted your agent and here you asking me to pay YOU an agent fee. Good flow of thoughts eh. 

Point #2: Why on earth are trying to claim that the reason for not taking me on in the first place to the (supposing) regulation of a 4 months break before a new student by your agent, when you originally told me it was due to some freaking location issues. HELLO?! Is it that you can’t link your flow of thoughts too well, or that you aren’t such a brilliant liar after all? 

Point #3: Well, I have no idea what regulation it is about the 4 months break before a new student… But you know what it sounds like to me? Bullshit it sounds like, I tell you. Nonetheless, I still hope for this to be true, if not NOTHING that you have said would be. Yucks. 

Me: OH, so you have turned to become HER AGENT FROM A FRIEND?

Personal comment: Ha, finally managed to asked her that question just like how I wanted to right from the beginning.

Anna: Yah, I am trying to become the agent. So can you complete the  4 lessons first before we end this?

Personal comment:

Point #1 (related to the previous ‘personal comment’): Yah, some more. Shame on you. Trying to exploit your friend. Oh, or has she suddenly turn to become your client, NOT FRIEND. Oh my oh my, this sounds confusing isn’t it. What is the world becoming of? We now have an A students here that couldn’t make up her mind and figure out her complicated relationship and social circle better than I do… What should I say? My sympathy goes out to you?

Point #2 (the most important one):  ”I am trying to become the agent.” – Hello Anna, TRYING is not good enough. It either YOU ARE ONE, if not YOU ARE NOTHING. Don’t come over to me and TRY to be an agent and expect me to pay for such terrible service. If you want that money, BE ONE.

Me: Okay, I am personally not convinced. If you are really an agent as you claim to be, SHOW ME A PROOF OR A FORM OF IDENTIFICATION that you are from some tuition center and agency to convince me. If this all turns out to be true, I’ll complete the four lessons.

Personal comment: I love myself for the bravery and courage. And, I think am I am in no wrong to ask for justification. I have asked from others for this form of proof and they managed to provide me with one, easily. Most importantly, they  treated our discussion with sincerity which I also managed to return (in my opinion) with kindness in the tone of my voice for their great service. Well, as usually I tried to sound nice (I said I tried), though the truth is that I think sound mad darn firm. BUT, I COMPLIMENTED LILY AND SAYING THAT IT WASN’T ENTIRELY HER FAULT THAT THINGS TURN OUT SO SOUR. (Did not mention it in the conversation points that you have read.) And at the end of this conversation, I couldn’t figure out why I was so mad darn kind to even compliment her in the first place. In fact, I am sinned cause I lied. Tsk, shouldn’t have put myself into such a tight spot, playing it nice with her.

Anna (who sounds totally mad pissed and has already lost her cool): Okay wait, so do you still want to continue tuition a not?

Personal comment: As  anyone on earth could read and understand, we can identify 3 possibilities to this question she tried asking me.

 Possibility #1, that Anna is freaking NO AGENT. If she truly is one, she would have provided me with the proof that I’ve asked her as enthusiastically as she has tried to convince me to go through that 4 lessons, earning that commission fee. Well, it just goes to reinforces how much of her NOT BEING AN AGENT.

Possibility #2: Anna is suffering from a short-term memory. At the very start of the conversation she said “I heard that you want to stop tuition with Lily.” and there she is asking something that she already know right from the beginning. Well, if I have yet to spot on any of the possibility which she can categorize herself in by now, it will have to boil down to this very last one.

Possibility #3: ANNA IS OF NO MATCH FOR ME. Anna can’t outwit me in logic, can’t outwit me in reasoning, can’t outwit me in the firmness of my voice, can’t outwit me in my speed of thinking and rebutting her, can’t outwit me in the speed which I engage  in the conversation, can’t outwit me in that slang which everyone tells me that I have, can’t outwit me in keeping my cool (most of it), can’t outwit me in my volume and lastly, she can’t outwit THE TRUTH.

Me: (A MAD FIRM) NO.

Personal comment: Bless you Anna, you needed this.

Anna: Okay then you just give Lily the money for that two lessons will do.

Me: Of course, more than willing.

Personal comment: I made it a point to slang very hard here, deliberately. Ha.

Anna: Okay, so you arrange with her to give her the fees.

Me: Sure.

END.   

So, as promised, I will be paying Lily for the 2 lessons she taught me. Will be mailing a cheque to her together with the notes that she has left with me. Being the nice individual that I am, and as you can (so not) tell, I will be mailing to her more than just a cheque and notes…

 There you go, it comes with INTERGRITY.L. (Y.L. – my initials), something priceless.

In comparison to her not too fantastic teaching, it’s a huge gift I have there for her. Talk about generosity.

I am such a scary person aren’t I? Well, I have to thank my parents, this world and the people living on it for attributing to my success in seeking out, (I don’t know, like) justice for myself. It’s all of you who have turned me this way. So, don’t have to be humble, you nasty human beings – you all deserved to be credited.

Some time last year, I got knock down really hard by some issues, at then my parents drill me so hard, telling me not to trust too easily. Aren’t I an A-star student for this? I think I learn fast, really. The extent which I can readily give all out for trust was such a huge margin that my parents offered to take two thousand dollars to let me learn a lesson on how not to trust. Well, I think I did perfectly well this time round, it only took me a hundred two to settle this one.

ps: My friend, I am really really really very SORRY!

Integrity

I’ve been trying out maths tuition with this (I presume A’level graduate) friend of my friend’s tutor. Claims to be an A student with 2 years of experience in teaching… 

And so here we go, to an interesting post which I would like to presume once again.

Got this tutor, (let’s call her Lily – made up, old school name) from a recommendation through my friend‘s tutor (let’s call her Anna, another one of the made up names) (as mentioned above) who couldn’t take me on for tuition accounting to location issues. Well, as of what I recall, I formulated the message for my friend to type to her tutor asking whether she is okay to take on another student. It goes something like this as I recall of … “Hey, my friend is looking for a maths tutor and she is wondering if you will be available to take her on?…” (somewhere along those lines). And Anna’s reply was for my friend to pass on her number to me, and to not go through the agent, which can help to save the 50% commission and in any case she can even recommend to her friends if she wouldn’t be able to take me on.

So as any logical human being would be able to reason based on what I have elaborated above, I was passed on to this Lily person by Anna. And here are the messages, exact,  accounting to the settling of tuition plans and blah with personal comments. (Happened around the last week of december) 

Anna: Heys yilian,  is it okay if you pay Lily after the first lesson for the month?

(Personal comment: Why should I be doing you this favour? There’s totally no guarantee in this. Like hello?!)

Me: Well is it possible for me to complete the 4 lessons first? Really sorry about it but there is no reassurance about this.

Anna: hmm…. Cos we’ve had bad experiences of students terminating tuition after 3 lessons and refusing to pay… which leaves us very helpless.. i can assure you Lily will turn up for 4 lessons.. And if you’re unhappy with her tuition you can terminate after one month… Is that ok?

(Personal comment: Darn! Should have spotted this as a hint that Lily might not be really good… Well, it’s unfair to judge her off just like that but with “students terminating tuition after 3 lessons and refusing to pay”, how good can it be? Tsk, wasn’t alert enough!)

Me: Well, I am really sorry but I don’t think my parents would be agreeable to that. Payment is not an issue for me and I’ll be willing to pay even if we have to terminate before the 4 lessons. Why not you discuss it over with Lily? If she’s really not comfortable with it, then perhaps it’s okay. I can look for another tutor. =)

(Personal comment: People who knows me well and good enough would know that I am totally not enthusiastic about smiley faces in the messages and I would only ought to use them when I think that there is no other nicer way of lightning up the tone of my message or just that I am simply in a good mood. As you can read, it is more of a case 1 scenario here.)

Anna: hmmm okay lah nvm, i’m quite sure you wouldn’t deny us payment… We’ll have payment after 4 lessons them. (blah blah – not important greeting content) …

So after all these negotiation and stuff I started off lessons with Lily, which should seem pretty obvious to have not turn out too well over the last week of december and first week of january. Despite trying really hard to clear off the 4 lessons, but we didn’t manage to… (due to some busyness on my part). And ever since the first lesson, I had in mind to change her off quickly so, it was a dreading process. Today, we had some on going messages which I initiate to first stop tuition, with her next lying like nobody’s business and lastly with me rebutting her in the nicest way possible. Here we go.

Lily: Hi, i need to know the tuition days asap. Thanks.

Me: Hi sorry for the delay in reply. Is it possible for us to stop tuition? You can come over to collect the fees for the 2 lessons and your notes. Really sorry but I don’t really think is working out very well.

Lily: Oh. Yah okay. but how do i answer to the agent? Because im supposed to pay him 50% of the first 4 lessons.

(Personal comment: This was the message that actually fuelled me into dedicating this post all out for this incident and there are a few points which I would like to point out on her 23 words reply which I will elaborate on from my personal comment to my reply for her this absurd message.)

Me: Agent? I remember getting to you through recommendation of Anna or something? I specifically remember her telling my friend to not go to the agent so that she can pass me on to on of her friends if she can’t be taking me. Well, in any case if there really is an agent, I would still think that his arrangement is alright cause I have had such encounters with others.

Personal comment/refute the her absurd and nonsensical message:

Point #1: There is NO AGENT TO BEGIN WITH as we can all tell right from the beginning of this whole entire post. So what was the agent thing about? Some cheat to make me complete a 4 lessons? You should count yourself lucky that I am not one of your other few students who refuse to pay up for your not too excellent teaching.

Point #2: Or are you simply telling me that the so called Anna has now turned into your AGENT cum friend who wants to charge you the 50% commission? If that’s it, please abandon that so called friend of yours cause she totally don’t deserve that 50% commission. If you have to insist that someone should be deserving of it, that would be my friend. And most importantly of all, seeing that Anna was so actively involved into the negotiation of making me pay up for the 4 lessons right from the start, I am not surprised that she might have even fabricated this lie for you. Of course, I hope for my prediction to be wrong. You see,  I do not need a even uglier view of this world. So just keep it to yourself and I will thank you for that.

Point #3: I do not think it’s any wrong to terminate the lesson in any juncture of this whole period. I have had tuition since KINDERGARDEN. I have pass through hands of many many many many other people, and over the years I can sort of tell who’s suitable and who’s not. Of course, with a little bit of time which I would always like to provide, cause it is definitely unfair to judge something or someone down right at the start. And as all should agree, in any point in time when you find that the tutor is of no help to you, isn’t it only common sensical to stop continuing tuition with that tutor? Well, at least that’s what I feel and that’s what the case is like for me right now. It makes no stupid sense to force yourself through lessons (which burns cash) on something useless and not helpful. Besides, I am in a course of taking the A’levels this year. As much as I would love to give it more time, I simply don’t have it and can’t afford to waste it off even if I were to have it.

Well, I can’t really explain out my thoughts on entitled this post under “integrity”… But I would love to believe that most can see the very link in this, cause if not, it goes to show something even nastier which I would not like to acknowledge for the time being.

ps: Lily has yet to reply to my last message which was sent like some 5 to 6 hours ago. Is it guilt, shame or disgust? I would be very interested to know.

pps: My friend, know you might be reading this so… well, I am really thankful for your help in my quest of a maths tutor and I hope that this post of mine would have no other forms of effects (in the negative sense) to you in any way(with you and Anna or anything) cause some things, are indeed just predictions. Though it didn’t turn out really well for me, but I do hope that it’ll turn out perfectly fine for you. Meet up again soon. Sending you a smiley face [=)]!

I say hello to this idiotic world and it’s people.

Went for the debate audition. I tell you it’s mad interesting cause you get to shout out the person that you are supposed to debate with. Actually, no shouting. Just that I was as usual, aggressive. And they pointed that out as a good point. Well, so tell me why I wouldn’t love it.

I ROAR.