Hello from my long hiatus.
How long was it?
18 DAYS.
The word ‘hiatus’ should sound way longer than this but this is the longest I’ve yet to post anything on pumpkins.
There’s been so much happening that I don’t really know where I should start.
Lets start from Rolling in the Deep (just so that I can link up with the previous post).
Some weeks ago, I signed myself up for this singing club in my school which required auditioning. I sang Rolling in the Deep for it and apparently scored it. According to the club, 80 plus auditioned and I was on of the 21 the handpicked to join the club. Actually I’m number 12th on their list.
I went on to attend their camp and paid for the club t-shirt, but I’ve decided to leave the club.
Singing or shower singing, is one of my favourite hobbies. For the lifetime. It’s been a hobby that I’ve developed ever since young when I joined my primary school’s choir.
And to maintain my passion for my shower singing, I need to quit. On top of that, I embarrassed myself during camp and that kind of scared me. Whenever I step into the bathroom to start my singing, I get some annoying flashback that will sent me into the automatic self-pity and pat-my-own-shoulder motion to tell myself it’s okay. I don’t ever want self-pity even if it were to be coming from myself.
Yes, I’m weird. But that’s how I roll.
I’ve been really occupied with school. Working to individual assignment due date, having to work on my group assignment, revise for tests and juggle with work.
Works ending though. This month. Working for Guerlain (if you’ve never known) is a real pleasure. I’ve never imagine myself working on a retail job let alone being a cosmetic girl.
The common stereotype impression cast around these girls standing by their brands is quite an opposite to what my outlook and style is so this opportunity comes off as quite a surprise. And honestly, the experience of having to lower your status to another person is something I don’t think I’ll ever get again. You know, the usual me with the looks of arrogance and boss-iness surrounding atmosphere around me, this is almost like a once in a lifetime opportunity for me to step out of it. I’m thankful for that. It has become so habitual and necessary for me to carry those aspects with me that it now takes me to step into another role to shake them off. Sounds incredibly ridiculous? I know. But I just do not know how else. Worst still, I don’t know if I’ll ever know.
I suppose I’ll end it here for today though I have a lot more to share.
On a rather depressing note on my part.
Hope it doesn’t affect your mood . Any case I don’t see how it would.
May the next post not take another 18 days.
Live life well.
